What am I suppost to say?
At this moment I should be doing my job but I have a literal hunger burning in me. So I have ordered some food yay me. This hunger thing would be so much easier if I hadnt stupidly decided to cut out/cut back/quit/pretend to quit smoking. And because I have decided to quit my body is torturing me by not being happy with anything I try pump it with. I have tried copiuos amounts of strong booze, which I learnt only makes things so much harder, then I have tried gorging myself with yummy food, that works really well but the the scale wont lie to me anymore. I have tried the 1 drag approach and failed as I end up running away with the cigarette and finishing it. I have tried the 10 cups of coffee a day method but that just gets me all gittery and jumpy. And so at the moment I buy a smaller box and try make it last a week but I never get past 1 hour without attempting to finish it.
So I have come up with a new plan and it works well for me. I buy a box of smokes for someone else and then smoke off them, that way they control how many I smoke and when I smoke. Which is easier but still sucks.
I know that it may sound like im not quitting but I really am.. Honestly I dont want to be a smoker anymore.